Quick Update

Tonight is a cool night of firsts, (for the sake of sanity I will be changing names)
I went to my first Best Christmas Pageant Ever rehearsal of the season, my third first time, and Amanda is deaf and I need to sign to her. I love her being there, but I feel like shit that she is always picked out and always center of attention for not speaking like everyone else. everyone else is an ass, I don't know why she would want to. But anyway, Joseph and Lana are really really fun to sit next to, I love absolutely everyone in the Theatre department, I just wish that I was half as talented as some of these people's big toe. I read along at the script read through, and impossibly fell into deeper love with theatre. Bless.
It was spirit night at Big Rosie's, so naturally, I didn't want to go, but my friends Jess and Kim accompanied me there. Andy met up there after like two hours, but everyone's phones were dead so it isn't like we were upset he was late, we didn't even get to tell him a time. I had more fun that I thought I would have.
I will stop procrastinating homework and do that, as well as I will try to start posting on here like a weekly thing or something. I started a sister blog. It is all my photography. Enjoy.
May we meet again in healthier times
Alex

Happy Mothers Day I guess.

"I don't wanna be here anymore."

A growing cliche, these six word stories...
These six words took the place of millions, as my best (grown-he's 19) friend sobs on the other end of the phone...what do you say in those situations? What do you do? Do you call someone? Do you tell them it will be okay? no one can honestly promise anything to anyone, ever...Even I would not be as negligent as to promise that everything will be okay...I respond as carefully as I can...

"Whenever I feel like this...I think to myself..What would my mom do if I did do something to myself..."

That is what made it worse. He ended up hanging up because he couldn't stop shaking.

Neither could I.

Why, feels...why...

it's 230 AM and I just finished watching 3 movies on my favorite pirated movie site (every below average teenaged girl has one of those--right?) and I'm supposed to "get up early" tomorrow [according to my mother] but at the current feelings, i dont feel like i will ever really get up again...who knows
but what i do know
is that i just found my avorite movie (who tf has one of those) i know, i know
oh calm down, breath itll be okay omg fine i will tell you gosh stop getting all crazy
the name is "Ask Me Anything" produced in 2014. 1 hour and 38 minutes of my tears and laughter. I love and cannot express how much just god..feels man
i thought at a few parts they would be the worst....and it just kept going...yupp so now, at this point, i've cried for the past two hours at this relateable story line that i fall no where close to
what am i doing with my life
who knows

Whew

A lot of crazy stuff has happened lately! Military ball was this past month, that was tons of fun. I was just recently a tech for the Hobbit, these are the days I'll remember when I'm all old and senile. (I think). The mac has been moved into a different room, sorry I haven't posted that much. (With all my 0 followers) but I am trying to be more active.
Things with get better, I hope.
May we meet again in happier times